Highlights from Today..

What a busy day..a better day.. It started off a little hard. Everything kinda seemed different when I was trying to go through my email on Brittany's computer this morning. Brittany went to play with a friend down the street so I got cleaned up to go run some errands. I had to go to the water company because I forgot that I needed to pay that bill. What sucks about that particular bill is that I cant pay it with my debit card so it always gets sat aside to get paid later..and then I forgot.. Luckily today I got out there and got it paid..And let me tell you.. this place is way out in the middle of no where. Just woods.. that's it..

Then it was on to find me a computer..

Here is the one I picked out. I thought this would would work great and its a lot lighter than my other one. I am still trying to get it all set up and get all my programs reinstalled so I can use them asap. But lots of work to get done on it before we take off for the weekend.

Scott came home from work and we went and saw another house. Still no word on the other one. Maybe he picked another person.. who knows.. But here is another one..

I know its a blurry picture..But its the one furthest away.

and I didn't mean to zoom so in on this one.. Don't know what my deal was with working the camera tonight but I emailed the owner and we are hopefully going to go see it Sunday evening. It looks ok..nothing that really stands out to me.. but maybe.. and time is running low!!

Jackson wanted to go back to Denny's for the last time.

So that's where we ended up!

There my guys are..

Brittany Belle.

Love this picture!

Here was my dinner.

We got home.. we were all tired..Scott put in a movie..that I thought totally sucked..More on that tomorrow! But I sat here through it while playing on my new computer!

It was during this time that I got this picture of...

Cooper and Mylo sleeping next together. Cooper sleeping with that ball next to him is a normal thing for him. I have always said the ball is Super Cooper's pacifier!

Scott has since went to bed.. I have took a bubble bath and now I am enjoying a yummy cup of hot tea that my friend sent me.. thinking about all I have to do tomorrow. I have to pack up the kids for the most part and finish Friday Morning. I am kinda trying to not think about it so much. It breaks my heart to know that they are heading home. I know its the reality.. I know that its better for them to be in a stable school and not to be moved around a lot but I will sure miss them. They are very loud and I wont miss that a lot but I know that I wont hear the sound of innocent giggles through out the house for a while. I am sure it will be around their birthdays or Christmas before I see them again. But.. we have skpye.. and because of that I can see them every day..and emails with teachers will be back on.. Their teachers send out massive amounts of emails so that's a lot to keep up on too. I know its going to be hard but I am going to do my best to keep it together because the more I get upset the more they get upset. With School starting for them on Monday.. I don't want them upset in any way. I already know that they are going to be tired.. Like I said.. Jackson is pretty happy about going home and seeing his daddy.. but Brittany on the other hand has kinda became clingy, and quite the past couple of days. I think she understands summer is over and isn't too happy about it. I just have to keep telling myself that ..

It's not forever... It's not forever.. It's not forever.. Its not forever...It's not forever..It's not forever..

And remember that the 3 of us love each other beyond words. Not being with them every day gives us the skill of learning to live like this. It's not easy. It's not the life I wanted for them.. for me.. but this is how we have to do it for the time being. and no distance is going to stop our love. Might sound Corny but it won't. I think my kids carry around my love for them as I carry around their love for me. There isn't a day that passes that we don't talk.

Well.. that is going to change on the cruise. I told them I would email every other day or something but that's it..We have 24 days left to go! Super excited but can't start thinking a lot about the cruise yet. We take them home..Then we have more kids coming.. and we also have our weekend in Tennessee. After that I will allow myself to think about the big trip! But we are both super excited about it getting closer. We both really need the time together..I just realized today how far we are away from the kids. Its over 7 hours one way.. Scott picked up a cute little Nissan SUV that we are going to take. I think its really cute.. Wish I could remember what kind it is but I like it a lot and he says its good on gas so that's what we are taking.. This time we are not packing around any cats either! Our house sitter will be here on Friday to keep watch over all the pets and make sure our house stays nice and safe while we are gone.

I have been realizing that there is a lot of gossip around this neighborhood and its starting to piss me off. Don't really know how much of it is true but will be happy to get out of here. I told Brittany I don't want her playing with some of the kids around here just because of their crazy parents. This is something kinda new to me.. Let me just say.. my part time summer parenting is 1000% better than their full time parenting. And one family has another baby that is being delivered tomorrow.. So hopefully the entire family, including Brittany's little friend will be busy until the kids go home Friday. We need tomorrow to really be more about us anyway. Its our last full day and night together. So..yea.. its about them.. in fact.. I might just wake them up in a few minutes to talk and cuddle. It only last for a few minutes before they fall back to sleep. But it makes memories and I know that those late night conversations are sometimes the best ones!

I am super happy that the kittens are really ready to go. I had been dragging my heels the past week or so in selling them. I had made little attempts but Saturday they will be in the paper for 2 weeks and I also got an email tonight from someone on Craigs List interested. I can't imagine them leaving but pretty sure more babies are on the way!

Well good night friends. Thinking and writing about the kids so much has left me feeling sick to my stomach. I wish there was a way to not feel the pain of them leaving. I would pay big money for the drug that could make that go away. I seriously thought about going to the Dr to get something to help but I think that would be a mistake. I am suppose to feel the pain because they are my children and I love them very much. Sorry in advance if I get a little emotional the next couple of days. I am sure on Saturday driving home they will really be in my mind. But I am hoping to come home and stay busy with community service and house guest that will help..But its going to be very difficult at first. It always is.

xoxo

K Jaggers

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