=( Not Happy =(

Tired..but still awake.. Its been a busy day of..

Carpet Cleaning for Scott and house cleaning for me. I ended up helping a lot with the furniture and vacuuming the rooms too. I got the laundry room and dining room cleaned. I know it doesn't sound like a lot but I totally took everything down and cleaned everything.. The walls. The 2 doors back there, the floor, the appliances, everything..The laundry room already looks like a mess again because I tossed some clothes in front of the washer to wash tomorrow. Still tons to do before Tuesday evening. Just thankful I can break it up over a couple of days.

While Scott was cleaning the carpets Giovanni started supervising..

And eventually made it over to the open window.

I love this picture! Posted it on facebook today!!

Scott was really tired from what he did today. He actually got a little grumpy and short with the kids.. I did too at points. Its hard to get an 8 and 9 year old to understand that they either need to help and also stay out of the way at the same time.

After the floors were done, he went out to get the screen fixed. They don't fix them at Lowes.. You have to buy the repair kit and fix it yourself..

And after a few minutes it was done and was going up!

I made dinner.. Chili Mac.. A fast yummy meal that was really good.. Scott and I ended up taking a break and watching a movie. Review coming tomorrow.. and I have since picked up a little bit and will do the rest tomorrow.

Brittany was really mad at me for turning off her tv at 10 am tonight. She got really mad, told me that I hate her, and took forever to fall asleep. I have the kids here a total of 4.5 days and I so do not want to be upset with them or have them upset with me this last week. I am about to just say.. screw it and let them stay up with the tv. It will hurt them in going back to school but I am thinking after a day or two of getting up early..that they will get back on schedule. This week is about talks and love and nothing else. I wont see them for a few months and its back to skpye, email and phones. Back to emails with their teachers. Brittany told me the other night that its like boarding school. Guess it is. I am wore out from non stop days with the kids but I wish they were here in school more than the summers. I hope my ex husband and I can switch that around one day. Its going to hurt for sure to kiss them goodbye at the end of summer on Friday afternoon. Its kicking in right now and I am already tearing up. This is so not easy and I have to compose myself the best I can so the kids don't get too upset either. Its pretty hard on Brittany.. Jackson too..But he gets excited about seeing his daddy. We have had long talks about how things are going to change at his dads. Our homes are very different and my ex husband is not as loving with him as I am and he gets yelled at a lot more..He knows more than anything how much I love him and we are just going to have to talk more while he is at home. Brittany is nervous about the school year and doesn't seem to want to go home as much. Oh my God you guys.. this is hard.

Deep Breaths..

Its crazy because those kids have my heart a way that no other has. They drive me nuts but its worth it. They are little people with all kinds of thoughts and emotions. I have no doubt that I am learning right along with them. Parenting is harder than anything. I feel mean half the time and the other half I feel frazzled. But none of that matters. They just are the best things I ever done and I'm proud of them. This summer was a bit harder for some reason. But every moment counts and I just hope they go home with some great memories of summer with Mommy and Scott. ♥

I don't know how I am going to do all that cleaning and spend time with them this week. Thursday is all about packing and they will be sleeping at their dads on Friday. But I have to make this last week around them. Blogging will be minimal. I will take lots of pictures.. and having those last important talks. I will blog at when I get up and at night after they are in bed but I have to make the most of this time. I have to. So please have fun in the archives or from the other bloggers. I will blog when I can but for the next 5 days is it is not a priority for me. To be very honest.. My heart is breaking right now. I don't know why its all hitting me right now but it is. I can barley breath..I am sure tonight's prayer is going to be long.

On to a lighter note..

The blue on the tips of my nails was already chipping. I figure it was from all the cleaning..

So tonight I did go with something kinda different..

China Glaze in # 649  HYBIRD

This is more me.. A neutral color that I like a lot..

and I did it without making too big of a mess! 

I am thinking this is the kind of color that I can wear!

Well.. its late.. I'm sad.. and I am going to get the coffee made, Jackson's breakfast ready and go cuddle in bed with Jackson tonight. Scott has a long day at work tomorrow and I am going to wake him up if I go in there right now at 3 am.. So snuggling up with Jackson. Brittany kicks too bad to snuggle with her.

Goodnight friends.

K Jaggers

♥