Happier Day

Hello!!!

 Happy Wednesday to everyone reading this! I didn't discuss what was going on last night but someone within my family said some things that was not to be repeated.. Of course it was and I was pretty upset about it..It was my fault too.. I wasn't suppose to tell her anything but I did. Anyway.. I went to bed feeling pretty frustrated.. I said a prayer and today I woke up feeling better. I am not going to focus on that kind of stuff.. I thought something needed said. I think I deserve an apology but I am sure it will be a cold day in hell before that happens but its on them. I cant control what comes out of any ones mouth but I can control what comes out of mine. So lesson learned... it wont happen again. I am very thankful that I woke up with this not heavy on my mind or heart today.. I am just trying to navigate through this complicated life.. I think we all are. I think that we all have to learn to keep our thoughts to ourselves otherwise this kinda thing happens. I shouldn't say this but I confided in my mom when I wasn't getting along with Scott and she kinda blew it up bigger than need be. But that's my mom and I totally know that she was only trying to steer me right..but in some ways it just made things worse. Like I said..we all should be careful of what we say to others about our private life. Its a huge lesson that I am sure many of you need to also work on. So that's the thought for today..

I am not going to let this crap or any other crap upset my time here with the kids. I think its all crap that takes up precious time. I don't want my thoughts consumed with upsetting stuff..So I am back focusing on happiness..smiles.. and laughter. I think sometimes people drag you down when they are upset or not feeling good and personally I think its best to avoid them until they are over what ever they are going through.. Same goes with Scott.. When he is tired and grumpy.. I think its best to just ignore him until he is in a better mood..I have been emotionally drained the last week or so and its time to change that up..Its like I am running on empty and its time to focus on me.. my family..my kids.. and get my mind and body filled back up with good things..The bad has chipped away so much that I am seriously depleted. So in order for that to happen.. phones are not going to be answered.. I am not answering questions about my relationship to family and I am not going to worry that what I say is going to upset someone. Its not going to happen. I totally felt betrayed yesterday and I'm not hiding that. But I am not going to dwell on it either..I'm just going to smile and move on.. with a better day! =))

On today's to do list..

Pick the house.. toss laundry around...picnic with the kids in a short while.. figure out whats for dinner.. calender time and I want to make time to email my pen pal.. Her family is also going through a hard time. So I am going to take time to talk to her and also to probably vent.. Its weird that I can trust a new friend with private information more than I can trust a family member. Go figure.. I am not complaining.. I have really made a new friend with her and I am always wanting to tell her new news before anyone else. Its starting out to be a great friendship!

Talking about friends... I want to take a second and say there were 2 girlfriends of mine..S.B. & C. B. ( no..they are not related ) that really helped me out last week when I was having some relationship issues and they were both so loving and supportive. I couldn't have asked for better friends.. So thanks to you guys too.. I wont ever forget that you sit there listened to me complain.. cry... and the list goes on and on.. Its the friends really helping right now.. I truly appreciate it.

Well.. Brittany is playing with one of the kittens like its an airplane right now.. So I am off here to get her!

Then time to get that picnic started!!!!

K Jaggers

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