Tuesday Truths

 - Yesterday was really long and hard at work. When the shift is over, I just want to run right out of there. However, yesterday it took longer to get out of there and it totally sucked.

- I am not sure why the men in my life all love Ancient Aliens. I admit, sometimes it's interesting but a lot of nights, it totally puts me to sleep!

- The cooler mornings are interesting. I am up and out super early and I do really enjoy being cold. Somehow, Someway, I just have to figure out how to deal with it.

- I have been loving all the new friends I have been making. It's strange if you would have told me this would be my life a year ago, I would have thought you were crazy. But I think I am exactly where I need to be and around who I need to be around in this exact moment.

- I really miss the cats and dog. I don't think a new puppy will change that either. But when I move, I am for sure getting a dog. I feel lost without one and it's something/a goal that I am looking forward to accomplishing.

- Internet still sucks. But it doesn't really matter. I am so tired at the end of the day, I just don't feel like making videos. Hopefully I can make a few in the same day to make it easier. I just need to get to that point. Sorry.  I have reviews I need to get working on. I have so many videos in my brain. I just need a little more space....a most importantly time.

- I have a ton of voicemails to check. Yep... not something I do very often. Might want to text instead friends and family.

- I haven't been eating all that healthy but I sure have been losing weight. I have been getting in over 5 miles a day and it's paying off in how my clothes feel. I guess a divorce and new job is bound to help any woman lose weight. And I don't so much mind!

- My fitbit is still saving my life. I looooove it. I love all the information it gives me and I love the silent alarms that wake me each morning. Follow Along: Kisha Jaggers. And for those of you who have asked. Yes I wear it all the time and charge it nightly when I am in the shower.

- Ex Husband News → still a loser. Not understanding how the divorce worked out. He is suppose to pay $500 on the 1st & 15th. And this is too hard for him. Hes not making the kind of money he use to make ( idiot should and can go back into the car business anytime he wants. ), I'm a bitch, he only makes 490 a week....yada yada yada. Supposedly the stolen iphone he took from me is now off. ( Bullshit ) and he hates me. All just EXCUSES. I guess we just have to go back to court and he can cry to the judge all while paying my attorney fees. What an asshole. Sister in law still a know it all who actually doesn't know what the hell she is ever talking about. * Nothing new there.

- Russell did laundry today and I couldn't have been more grateful. I bitched, moaned and groaned most of the evening. Body hurt, tired and grumpy. Thankfully he was able to put a smile on my face along with helping out with a lot of the things that needed done around here. I swear he really has been a big help, comfort and love since all this has happened.

- I am in the middle of the woods and my worst fear right now is hitting a deer in the mornings...and evenings. I see them all the time. Makes me nervous as hell.

- I am so proud of my kids. I don't think I have been the best mom but somehow in despite of me, they are amazing. I am blessed because of them and I don't take it for granted at all.

- The bed in this camper is seriously one of the softest beds I have ever slept on. Its like a big soft feather bed that I snuggle right down in. Looking forward to my next day off when I can stay in it a little longer. But I never sleep in that late anymore and that sucks!

- The coffee this morning smells amazing. Time for another cup! I think I have an addiction to coffee at this point. Those little folgers tea bags work great for us and they actually make amazing cups of coffee.

- Gabby is in desperate need of a bath. A task I don't really want to do after a long day at work but I think it might just be happening later this evening. Or not... but sometime soon.

- Life is still a bit challenging for me. I am still settling into a life I was not expecting. I wish I would have been more prepared. For me, I just didn't plan on things ending. I really didn't. Do any of us really go into or stay in a relationship that we are sure it's going to end? No I don't think so. But it would have been smarter to have planned out some security for myself. Gotta learn from my mistakes for sure. I am not scared any longer. That's been a blessing on it's own. I am smiling more. Feeling more confident as I move through each day. I am allowed to have hard days....sad days....but I am just not allowed to give up.

Thank you guys for stopping by. Feel free to let me know how your day is going....have a great day!  See ya soon. xx