Waking up..

I just woke up 30 minutes ago.. I didn't wake up because I wanted to.. I woke up from a bad dream.. About Scott.. No fun! It almost made me sick.. I ran to the bathroom because I thought that my entire insides were going to come out. However, I didn't get sick.. I sure thought I was going to though. Oy.. I love that man way to much! Just glad it was a dream and not reality!

I wanted to sleep in today.. I haven't got to sleep in like I wanted in days.. So I was wanting it to feel good..NOT!! Well.. I guess I did.. until I started dreaming! O-well.. Life goes on.. After I told Scott he was nothing but loving and sweet to assure me that it was just a dream.

So on today's to do list.. I am in a mood to simplify things around here. I am tired of the clutter. I know that I say that often...but if your home is anything like ours..clutter can stack up in no time. I really want to get it cleaned up and I am going to start a pile of things I don't want for the good will.. Clothes too. Scott's step moms house really made me think about clutter...Her house is very simple and I liked it.. I took some pictures that I will post soon..its not a mansion or anything but when I looked around ( btw.. I have been there many times..and I didn't notice anything before ) and I loved how simple the house was.. Hell..every corner of our home has something in it.. Well.. I am in the mood to get rid of some stuff now and that's what I am going to do the next few days!

While we were down there Scott's dad and step mom gave him a gun of his fathers. He really wanted it and I think its a shotgun from 1905 or something.. It has a little handle where you put the bullets and I really like it.. Just one more gun to add to Scott's arnsiel! I am sure with that gun he will keep forever. It was really nice of them to give him that.

I know that I posted on here that I was not so thrilled about seeing his step mom. My impressions of her were different this time. It's no secret that Scott's mom had my heart from the very beginning.. I have said many many times that she loved me when I didn't love me.. She was there in some of our hardest times as a couple and she always showed me a great deal of love and respect. So being around another mother figure of Scott's was not easy task for me. I started off kinda distant and after a few hours of watching and listening to her, I kinda had a new respect for her. Scott's father is battling Parkinson's disease and he is now living full time in a nursing home. Its been a been a real difficult situation for the family. And this time when I looked at her.. I saw a frail woman..who had been though a lot. She still is very much a southern belle and she is a smart ass sometimes too. She only said a couple of things I didn't like but I suppose it was the truth that she said. However for the most part she was really kind and we got along pretty good.. She cried a lot about Scott's dad and I do believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that she loves him. Its really sad to see his father like that. His right side is paralyzed and its hard for him to speak..But he can talk but not like he use to. He stares a lot now too. He can feed himself so Scott fed him breakfast both days and then his step mom feeds him dinner..The nurses feed him breakfast most days. I think its sad that he cant live at home any more. But he is very comfortable in the retirement home and they seem to take really good for him. It broke my heart to see him like that...but the trip was nice and it was good seeing them. And I am sure we will be going back as soon as we can!

Well.. I got to start this day.. I am getting out a garbage bag and starting to toss stuff out..
I have a lot of up coming post that I will get up throughout the day on my breaks!

Hope you all are having a great Wednesday!

K Jaggers

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