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HOW FREAKING ADORABLE IS THAT KITTEN...

OHHHH..MY LOVE FOR CATS WILL NEVER END!

WELL TODAY WAS BETTER. I WAS BOUND TO MAKE IT A BETTER DAY AT ANY COST. AND IT WORKED. I WORKED AROUND THE HOUSE, RAN A FEW ERRANDS, AND MADE A GREAT DINNER. BESIDES THAT, TODAY WAS PRETTY EASY. I NEEDED IT TO BE EASY. I DONT THINK MY MIND, BODY, OR SOUL COULD HAVE HANDLED ANOTHER TERRIBLE DAY. I KNOW THAT A LOT OF THE THINGS THAT ARE HARD RIGHT NOW ARE OF MY OWN DOING. SOMETIMES I DONT UNDERSTAND MYSELF. SOMETIMES I AM REALLY GOOD AT SELF DESTRUCTION. ITS WEIRD BECAUSE I AM REALLY GOOD ABOUT TAKING CARE OF OTHER PEOPLE BUT I AM NOT SO GOOD AT CARING FOR MYSELF AT TIMES. ITS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE TO WORK HARDER ON...YESTERDAY WAS JUST A TOTAL BREAKDOWN FOR ME...NOT EVER WANTING TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN.  

I AM WORE OUT.. AROUND 11:30 I WAS YAWING THINKING I SHOULD BE SLEEPING AND NOW ITS ALMOST 2 AM AND I AM STILL UP..BUT NOT FOR LONG. I DONT HAVE TO BE UP AT ANY TIME IN PARTICULAR TOMORROW SO I AM NOT THAT WORRIED ABOUT IT BUT CLIMBING INTO THAT BED IS SOUNDING SO GOOD!

I WANTED TO SAY TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY THAT HAVE BEEN NOTHING BUT SUPPORTIVE ON FB AND ON HERE...

THANK YOU..

ITS AMAZING HOW GOOD OF FRIENDS I HAVE. THE SUPPORT HAS BEEN SO APPRECIATED. IM ALWAYS AMAZED AT HOW KIND PEOPLE CAN SOMETIMES BE. I WAS IN TOTAL DESPAIR YESTERDAY AND ALSO I WAS PRETTY UPSET AT THE BEGINNING OF TODAY BUT I MADE IT TO TONIGHT.

AND MOST OF ALL THANK YOU TO SCOTT AND MICHAEL FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME ON NOT SUCH GOOD DAYS. THOSE GUYS ARE MORE LOVING AND SUPPORTIVE THAN I COULD EVER EXPECT. FOR YOU GUYS WHO THOUGHT I WAS HAVING PROBLEMS WITH SCOTT...KNOW THAT WAS NOT THE CASE AT ALL.. I WAS HAVING A WAR WITH MYSELF..SCOTT WAS NOT INVOLVED..IT WAS HIM AND MICHAEL HELPING GET ME TOGETHER. THINGS ARE REALLY HARD WITH THE JOB ISSUE..I WILL TALK MORE ABOUT THAT TOMORROW...BUT THAT WAS JUST A SMALL PART OF YESTERDAY.. SOMETIMES I REALLY DO THINGS WITHOUT THINKING AND YESTERDAY I PAID THE PRICE. SO LESSON LEARNED..AND ITS NOT TO BE REPEATED. EVER..BTW..IT WAS SOMETHING SOOOOOOO STUPID.. I CANT DESCRIBE HOW STUPID IT WAS.. ALL I CAN SAY IS I THINK I MUST HAVE HAD AN OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE DURING THAT TIME!  SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO REALLY EXPERIENCE THE BAD..TO GET TO THE GOOD..EVEN WHEN IT IS SELF CREATED.

ALL I CAN SAY IS...

I AM REALLY SORRY.. SINCERELY..

WELL FRIENDS..I AM OFF TO GO DREAM..

TALK TO YOU TOMORROW..

K JAGGERS

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