{ LATE NIGHT }

HELLO FRIENDS..ITS PROBABLY MORNING TO YOU GUYS READING THIS! RIGHT NOW ITS ABOUT 315 AM AND I AM WIDE AWAKE. I SHOULD TAKE A SLEEPING PILL BUT I GUESS I WILL WAIT TILL AFTER I FINISH THIS POST.

IM LAYING IN MY BED JUST WATCHING TV..I AM ACTUALLY WATCHING SEX AND THE CITY 2 FOR LIKE THE 3RD TIME. SUCH A CUTE MOVIE..THINKING ABOUT IT..I FORGOT TO DO A REVIEW ON IT..REALLY DO I NEED TO? BUT I GUESS I BETTER..JUST TO KEEP UP!  I HAVE ANOTHER ONE BESIDES THAT ONE TO DO TOO..ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT I HAVE 3 TO DO! LOL..I WILL TRY TO WORK ON THOSE TOMORROW..

NOW...A FEW OF YOU MIGHT HAVE NOTICED IF YOU ARE FRIENDS WITH ME ON FACE BOOK THAT I HAVE DECIDED TO START USING THE APP THAT IS " MY PLACES"..I WILL GO INTO THIS MORE TOMORROW..BUT IF YOU SEE IT...FEEL PRIVILEGED..I CHOOSE WHO COULD SEE IT VERY VERY CAREFULLY..I WILL TALK TO YOU MORE ABOUT IT IN A POST TOMORROW AND LET YOU KNOW WHAT I FEEL ABOUT IT, MY RULES, AND HOW IT WORKS..I WANT YOU ALL TO UNDERSTAND IT SO I WILL BE DOING A PRETTY IN DEPTH POST ABOUT IT ALL TOMORROW/TODAY!

WELL TONIGHT WENT PRETTY WELL..IT WAS BETTER THAN HOW THE DAY STARTED..I WOKE UP A BIT GRUMPY AND YELLED AT SCOTT WHEN I HEARD HIM YELLING AT MY CAT ~ GIOVANNI ~ AND THEN WHEN WE WENT OUT RUNNING ERRANDS I GOT A LITTLE UPSET WITH HIM ( AND I THINK IT WAS MUTUAL ON HIS END TOO!) BUT ONCE WE GOT HOME WE BOTH WERE FINE AND ENDED THE NIGHT IN A GOOD WAY..I THINK HAVING HIM HOME WITH ME EVERY MINUTE OF EVERY DAY IS STARTING TO REALLY WEAR ON ME..I AM HOPING BY TUESDAY THAT IS OVER. AND TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST..I AM SURE I WILL BE COMPLAING THAT I MISS HIM AFTER HE IS BACK TO WORK..BUT..I WILL ENJOY MY TIME ALONE TOO. I WANT HIM TO KNOW HE IS LOVED..I TALKED A LOT ABOUT THAT THURSDAY NIGHT IN A POST YET I WOKE UP GRUMPY..GUESS THERE IS TOMORROW TO DO BETTER. I DO LOVE HIM DEARLY..JUST GOT TO GET BETTER AT MAKING HIM FEEL IT. I GUESS I HAVE DONE A LOT OF COMPLAING SINCE WE HAVE BEEN HERE. I DONT LIKE THE HOUSE, I DONT LIKE THE TOWN, I DONT LIKE MY CAR...AND THE LIST COULD GO ON AND ON ....ACCORDING TO SCOTT..SO I GUESS I HAVE TO GIVE THIS PLACE MORE OF A CHANCE. I AM NOT CRAZY ABOUT THIS HOUSE..ITS SMALLER THAN WHAT I WANTED AND YOU CAN HEAR EVERYTHING..NOT FEELING THE TOWN SO MUCH YET..AND I REALLY DONT LIKE THE CAR..SO ITS ALL TRUE BUT I HAVE TO WORK ON CHANGING IT..THERE ARE POSITIVES ABOUT THEM ALL. ITS STILL A VERY NICE HOME..THE TOWN SEEMS TO HAVE EVERYTHING I WOULD NEED AND WANT IN IT..AND THE CAR IS NICE..I JUST DONT CARE FOR IT.. SO I NEED A LESSON IN BEING GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE.

I MAKE NO EXCUSES THAT I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS. I TRY MY HARDEST TO SHOW KINDNESS AND LOVE. I DONT CONSIDER MYSELF HIGH MAINTENANCE IN ANY WAY..BUT I GUESS I AM SPOILED AND I NEED TO WORK ON TRYING TO NOT ACT SPOILED! LOL..I AM SURE THIS WILL ALL COME TOGETHER IN TIME. I AM STILL PRETTY HOME SICK AND I WAS REALLY JUST STARTING TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN UPSTATE OHIO...IT TOOK YEARS TO GET THAT WAY AND I AM SURE IT WILL BE THE SAME WITH THIS TOWN. I JUST GOT TO KEEP MY FAITH THAT THIS WILL ALL BE OK..

MY KIDS ARE BUSY SPENDING THIS WEEKEND WITH THEIR GRANDMOTHER IN UPSTATE OHIO..MY EX GOT A HOUSE SITTER FOR THE HOUSE AND DOG AND PILED THE KIDS IN THE CAR FOR A LONG LONG TRIP TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH THEIR GRANDMOTHER. I AM NOT CRAZY ABOUT THEM GOING ON LONG TRIPS VIA THE CAR BUT THEY MADE IT SAFE AND SOUND. I MISS THEM SO MUCH. I THINK THAT IS PART OF THE PROBLEM WITH ME LATELY. I FIND MYSELF IN TOTAL DESPAIR SOMETIMES NOT HAVING THEM HERE WITH ME. I KNOW THIS CANT LAST FOREVER. I DO MY BEST TO NOT LET THE KIDS KNOW HOW I FEEL..HOWEVER, BRITTANY IS VERY INTUITIVE. SHE KNOWS. ITS CRAZY THAT SHE CAN TELL WHAT IS GOING ON WITH ME THOUGH JUST MY VOICE. AND SHE IS ONLY 9 YRS OLD..SOMETIMES I THINK SHE KNOWS ME IN CERTAIN WAYS BETTER THAN MY HUSBAND...WHAT A SPECIAL LITTLE GIRL. I LOVE WATCHING HER GROW UP..EVEN FROM A DISTANCE.

ANYWAY FRIENDS..THATS WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON AROUND HERE..

LOTS AND LOTS IN MY HEAD TONIGHT! SORRY ABOUT THE RAMBLING..

TALK TO YOU TOMORROW..

K JAGGERS

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