A CHALLLENGING DAY..

WOW..ITS BEEN A LONG DAY. ITS MID NIGHT AND I AM FINALLY GETTING SOME TIME TO MYSELF WITHOUT HAVING ANYTHING TO DO EXCEPT WHAT I WANT TO DO!

IT WAS A CHALLENGING DAY TO SAY THE LEAST. LITTLE JACKSON GAVE ME A RUN FOR MY MONEY. ALL DAY HE WAS GETTING INTO TROUBLE. I GUESS IT WAS JUST A HARD DAY FOR HIM. BUT WITH THAT, HE CREATED A HARD DAY FOR ME TOO!

ALONG WITH TONS OF MESSES THAT HE MADE, HE BROKE HIS LIGHT ON HIS CEILING FAN WHICH REALLY MADE ME MAD. LUCKILY SCOTT WENT TO THE HARDWARE STORE BEFORE COMING HOME AND GOT IT FIXED. THANK YOU BABY. FINALLY AROUND BED TIME HE CALMED DOWN AND STARTED ACTING RIGHT. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO PULL MY HAIR OUT TODAY DEALING WITH HIM. HE WAS GETTING INTO SO MUCH TROUBLE THAT EVEN BRITTANY STARTED FEELING BAD FOR HIM. I FINALLY HAD TO PUT HIM IN HIS ROOM AND MADE HIM STAY THERE UNTIL I COOLED DOWN. ITS AMAZING HOW KIDS CAN PUSH YOUR BUTTONS SOMETIMES.

I WENT OUTSIDE TO WORK TO COOL OFF. OUR BRICK STEPS LEADING IN OUR FRONT DOOR WERE BROKEN AND LOOKED HORRIBLE. SO I TOOK SOME BIGGER BRICKS FROM THE BACK OF THE HOUSE AND REPLACED THE BROKEN ONES. THEY WERE EXTREMELY HEAVY AND HARD TO GET TO THE FRONT OF THE HOUSE. I HAD TO CARRY 5 OF THESE HEAVY BRICK SLAPS AROUND THE HOUSE. I COULD ONLY CARRY ONE AT A TIME BUT IT HELPED TO RELIEVE SOME OF THE STRESS I HAD FROM DEALING WITH JACKSON ALL DAY. WHEN I WAS FINISHED I WAS ACTUALLY PRETTY PROUD OF MYSELF. IT MADE ME FEEL BETTER TO ACTUALLY ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING ON SUCH A CRAZY DAY.

THEN IT STARTED POURING DOWN RAINING. IT RAINED ON AND OFF MOST OF THE DAY. HEAVY RAIN. I LOVE WHEN IT RAINS BUT I REALLY COULDNT ENJOY IT MUCH BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING ON. BUT I DID MANAGE TO SNAP A FEW PICTURES. HERE IS ONE SHOWING HOW MUCH RAIN WE WERE GETTING. WE LOST OUR TVS AND MY WIRELESS SIGNAL SUCKED MOST OF THE DAY DUE TO THE RAIN. THAT ONLY MADE THINGS MORE STRESSFUL FOR ALL OF US. WHEN JACKSON DOSENT HAVE TV HE REALLY IS A HAND FULL. SO I PUT A MOVIE IN AND STARTED DINNER

WHILE IT POURED DOWN..I DIDNT EVEN COOK FOR SCOTT AND MYSELF. I JUST MADE A QUICK DINNER OF MINI CORN DOGS, MAC AND CHEESE AND FRUIT FOR THE KIDS. I JUST COULDNT DO MUCH MORE. I WAS TIRED AND FRUSTRATED SO I JUST GOT THEIR DINNER DONE AND HOPED SCOTT WOULDN'T MIND EATING SOMETHING QUICK AND SIMPLE.

ONCE HE GOT HOME BRITTANY AND I TOOK OFF TO DO SOME SHOPPING FOR HER TRIP. SHE LEAVES TOMORROW MORNING TO GO TO TEXAS TO SPEND 2 WEEKS WITH MY MOM. I STILL CANT BELIEVE SHE IS LEAVING. SHE LEFT HER CAMERA AT HER DADS SO WE HAD TO GET HER ONE, PLUS SHE NEEDED A FEW OTHER THINGS. SHE WOULD HAVE BOUGHT OUT THE STORE IF HER SUIT CASE WOULD HOLD IT ALL! WHILE I WAS THERE I PICKED UP SCOTT A READY MADE SANDWICH FOR DINNER. THEN WE HEADED BACK HOME.

THEN IT WAS TIME TO COME HOME AND PACK HER UP. IT WAS HARD FIGURING OUT WHICH SUITCASE TO USE. I DIDNT WANT A HUGE ONE BUT I WANTED ONE THAT WOULD HOLD HER STUFF BUT BIG ENOUGH TO BRING HOME ANYTHING SHE BOUGHT. SO WE WENT WITH A MEDIUM SIZED ONE FOR HER. SHE LOVED PACKING. SHE HELPED WITH EVERYTHING. SHE EVEN HAD ME MAKE A LIST OF EVERYTHING SHE WAS TAKING TO BE SURE SHE WOULD BRING IT ALL HOME. I THOUGHT THAT WAS ADORABLE! SHE HAS HER CLOTHES LAID OUT FOR TOMORROW, HER PURSE READY AND MONEY IN HER WALLET..SHE COULDN'T BE HAPPIER. I DIDNT REALLY WANT TO LET HER GO..HOWEVER WHAT CHANGED MY MIND WAS WHEN SHE TOLD ME THAT HER ONE GRANDMOTHER WAS GONE, AND MY MOM WAS THE ONLY GRAND MOTHER SHE HAS LEFT. I TOLD HER THAT SHE HAS HER GREAT GRANDMOTHER MARY AND HER FATHERS MOTHER, AND HER RESPONSE TO ME WAS...I REALLY ONLY HAVE GRANDMA LEFT AND THATS GRANDMA " NETTA". SO AFTER REALIZING THAT SHE HAD LOST HER GRAND MOTHER WATTEAU AND THAT THE OTHER 2 GRAND MOTHERS SHE HAD ISNT REALLY CLOSE TO HER, THE ONLY CHOICE I HAD WAS TO LET HER GO. I AM REALLY GOING TO MISS HER. I DONT GET AS MUCH TIME WITH HER AS I WANT, BUT THIS DECISION WAS ME THINKING OF HER AND NOT MYSELF. SO NO MATTER HOW MUCH IT HURTS ME TO SEE HER GO FOR 2 WEEKS, I AM SURE SHE WILL HAVE A BLAST AND MAKE A TON OF GREAT MEMORIES.

JACKSON COULD HAVE WENT TOO. SHE OFFERED TO FLY HIM DOWN BUT HE SAID NO WAY..HE WAS STAYING HERE WITH ME. SO MOM WENT AHEAD AND BOUGHT THE TICKETS AND THEN OF COURSE HE CHANGED HIS MIND AND DECIDED HE WANTED TO GO. BUT IT WAS TOO LATE. THERE WERE NO MORE SEATS AVAILABLE ON THE SAME FLIGHT. SO HE IS STAYING HERE WITH ME. I HOPE THAT THE ALONE TIME WITH HIM WILL HELP HIM A LITTLE BIT. I WANT HIM TO FEEL LOVED AND MAYBE SOME ONE ON ONE ATTENTION WILL BE GOOD FOR HIM.

WELL I AM OFF TO FINISH THINGS UP BEFORE HEADING TO BED. WE HAVE TO BE UP BY 10 AND LEAVING THE HOUSE BY 11:00. WE ARE GOING TO PICK MOM UP WHO IS FLYING IN FROM TX FOR LUNCH BEFORE SHE AND BRITTANY FLY OUT AT 330. WE WILL DROP THEM BACK OFF AFTER LUNCH TO GET THROUGH SECURITY AND GET SETTLED BEFORE BOARDING THE PLANE. THIS IS BRITTANY'S FIRST PLANE RIDE. I WISH I COULD BE WITH HER BUT SHE IS GROWING UP AND WONT ALWAYS HAVE ME BESIDE HER. BUT I AM SURE MOM WILL TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES FOR ME!

HAVE A GREAT NIGHT!

K JAGGERS

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