Well I am feeling the pain today..I went to bed super late..I don't know what the hell I was thinking staying up so late last night. It was pass 4am before I finally went to sleep. Sometimes I don't know what keeps me from wanting to go to sleep. I seem to fight it so bad. It really sucks.
So the picture to the left, is going to have to be my life line. I plan on getting as much espresso in my system as quickly as possible in the coming hours. I heard that " The powers of ones mind, are directly proportioned to the quality of coffee they drink." Lets hope that is true for me today.
I am in fear that I will not get very much done before baby gets home tonight. The later I say up, the longer it takes to get the day going. And sleeping in on an early night is not ever a good idea! The day passes quick for me while I suspect it lingers on for baby. He was in the shower 2 times last night and when I was still awake at 2:30 he was still sound asleep in the bath. God, that worries me. I checked on him a few times but every time I opened the door he woke up. I don't know if anyone ever told him that being scrunched up in a hard bath tub is not where you are suppose to sleep. And there is no chance now of him learning that small detail! I am up early because the yahoos about 20 feet from my house are putting in a new sidewalk..Do they really have to use a jack hammer at 830? I have lots of family and an ex husband in construction, so I do respect the industry but someone needs to tell them work shouldn't start for residential areas until after 9am. I almost headed down there to give them a piece of my mind. But that would require me getting dressed and right now that's not happening! I am hoping to fall back to sleep in a bit, but once again Tuesdays are not good for sleeping in late. But I am feeling the pain right now, so I may just have to do it anyway.
I got my laptop back yesterday from HP. I have to say it appears to be running really good without the problems it had before. They also finally fixed the port that was broke. I was pretty upset re that port..I didn't break it but they were hell bent on not covering it under warranty. But this time they did fix it. Couldn't be happier. I got my friends laptop all cleaned up and packed up to head back home with him. I really appreciate him letting me use his computer.. THANKS BEN. ( Oh..and Ben if you reading this, you have today and tomorrow to get that bonus so you better get to the dealeship and sell a car! =) )
UPDATE ON GRANDMA... she is doing ok in her new apartment. She is still having some different problems and I am checking on getting that Life Alert that she can wear in case she falls or has some kind of issue. She needs to be able to communicate with emergency personnel if something happens to her. I get so worried about her. I love her dearly. When I spoke to her yesterday, she said, " I'm still alive today"...WOW...When she says something like that, it is a reminder that I wont always have her here with me. I cant imagine what that day will be like. The only word that comes to me right now about that day happening is.....DEVASTATION. It will really really change my life. I already feel somewhat of an orphan. I lost my brother, grandparents, my uncle who I loved a lot, and many friends. Including some very good friends. In addition to them being gone, I also have a mother who is choosing to be gone..So I still have my dad and grandmother, along with most of my moms side of the family but most of the major people in my life are now gone..One friend comes to mind as I write this.. John Allen..God, I miss him. I use to call him my little model. He was so good looking. He was an awesome friend who seen me through a terrible break up and who was there for the beginning of my love affair with Scott. He overdosed and died in Miami. I was traveling and couldn't attend the funeral services but that doesn't stop me from remembering the great times we had. He was an amazing person. One day, I will see him along with all my family who is on the other side. Its just scary being here left alone. I always use to talk to my Grandmother Watteau about being the one left behind. I was the youngest and always knew that the day would come that I would have to walk on my own without them physically beside of me. Some days that's a really hard thing for me to do. And if I don't stop thinking about it right now, today is going to be one of those days. I am just grateful that I had time with each one of those people because I learned something from all of them. I carry them with me everyday. And I know now, to show the people I love that they mean the world to me and Grandma is at the top of that list.
Giovanni sure looks like he had a late night too. Hell, with his eyes a little open like they are, he looks dead. But I can assure you that he is very much alive! I guess I shouldn't have kept him up so late last night! Lucky Cat.. At least he is still sleeping!
Boy little Brittany was a handful on the phone last night. She was super upset with her dad for not letting her wear a skirt without shorts under it. She doesn't think the boys can see her butt, but in fact, when she is walking up the stairs, if there are any boys behind her they can see everything! She said her dad has no idea what he is talking about! Sure glad he is trying to make the right decisions. I don't want her wondering around the school showing her butt either. She is only 8 and thinks she is 20...I can see problems coming down the road. I need patience!
Hope everyone has a great Tuesday. I plan on getting this coffee in my system as quickly as possible and trying to start my day.But not before watching the news and the Peoples Court! I got a lot done off that to do list I blogged yesterday but still I have a ton of things to do. I worked a lot on laundry yesterday but didn't get it all finished. I sooooooooooo HATE laundry. Its one of the worst jobs in the house. I swear if I do start working, I might just pay to have it all taken care of...In the meantime, I guess I will just have to suffer through it!
Spread some love today!
K Jaggers ♥
