PAINFUL DAYS

My poor husband has been feeling really bad for the past couple of days. His back pain has been really really bad. One of the only things that makes him feel better is the shower...He takes a lot of hot showers. He even lays down while the shower is running and falls asleep. It seems to be one of the only things that give him relief. He is in there for hours on end somehow. He has figured out how to keep the water pressure really low allowing his shower to last even longer. He has always slept in the shower. In the beginning of our relationship, I couldn't figure out what he was doing in there. I would wake up in the middle of the night and always found him in the shower. It really started to bother me...I wondered what he was doing in there all that time..It drove me crazy...But finally after years together, I know that he is sound asleep letting the water run down on him. It actually worries me sometimes that something tragic will happen. I figure since he is a grown adult, he will be fine. Plus he rarely fills the bathtub up..For the life of me, I don't know how the hell he sleeps in that hard bathtub..I thought that since he does it, it must feel good...RIGHT.. I couldn't sleep for one second. He has been having trouble with his back and neck for a long time now. He is on some pretty strong medication too. I have a feeling that surgery is going to happen. He needs his disc fused together to eliminate the pain. That worries me too. I am hoping with golf season coming up, it will help loosin his muscles up and make him feel better. I keep trying to get him to try acupuncture but so far he has shied away from it. I don't know what to do to make him feel better. I have tried rubbing his back but long before he feels relief, my hands are hurting. I have bought all kinds of different things to help massage his back and even his family has bought him different gadgets but nothing is working. Its really hard to see someone you love in so much pain. Whenever I have been hurting, he has sure been there to help in any and all ways. Taking me to the hospital in the middle of the night for migraines, running me to the Dr when I have been sick, helping get my prescriptions picked up and always showing love and support in any time of need. And here I am, and I cant help him. It makes my heart break. I guess I am going to have to research on how to really alieve back and neck pain and see what I come up with to help him. I didn't even get to spend much time with him tonight. He worked till 8, and then came home and layed on the couch with the heating pad until he went to the shower. After being in there for a long time, he headed upstairs to bed. I got to see him for only about an hr and a half. It sucked..But hopefully this weekend we will have more time together.

I miss you baby. Sorry you are feeling so bad...Remember you mean everything to me.

I love you with all my heart. ♥

Love, Kisha