MISUNDERSTOOD

I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START...MY LITTLE JACKSON IS A HAND FULL!! PRECIOUS BUT A LITTLE BOY SO FULL OF ENERGY! HE HAS BEEN HAVING SOME PROBLEMS WITH SCHOOL..HE HATES IT. THE PICTURE ABOVE IT HIS TRUE PERSONALITY AND IT COMES OUT NO MATTER WHERE HE IS! A FEW WEEKS BACK I ASKED HIM TO TELL HIM 2 THINGS HE LIKED ABOUT SCHOOL. HE TOLD ME HE COULDN'T THINK OF ANYTHING. SO I SAID TO HIM THAT HE NEEDED TO REALLY THINK ABOUT IT AND THE NEXT DAY I WANT 2 THINGS THAT HE LIKES ABOUT SCHOOL.. THE NEXT DAY CAME AND SO DID HIS ANSWERS. FIRST HE SAID HE LIKES LUNCH.. THEN HE SAID P.E. THE OTHER PART OF SCHOOL THAT HE LIKED..UGH....TRYING TO GET HIM TO FIND SOMETHING ABOUT SCHOOL THAT HE LIKED WAS NEXT TO IMPOSSIBLE.. SO SCHOOL CONTINUES, AND JACKSON IS ALWAYS BRINGING HOME BEHAVIOR PAPERS. PART OF ME GETS MAD AT HIM, ANOTHER PART OF ME GETS MAD AT THE TEACHERS. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO MAKE A CHILD LIKE SCHOOL IN THE FIRST GRADE. TWO NIGHTS AGO HE WAS AT HIS FATHERS AND IN TROUBLE FOR BRINGING HOME ANOTHER BEHAVIOR NOTE. I ASKED HIM WHAT IT SAID.. HE SAID " NOT RAISING MY HAND TO TALK, NOT STAYING IN MY SEAT, RUNNING AROUND THE HALLWAYS, AND DISRUPTING THE OTHER KIDS, AND MOM ALL I WAS TRYING TO DO IS HAVE A GOOD TIME." IN THAT MOMENT I JUST WANTED TO SAY DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT BABY, JUST GO HAVE A GOOD TIME AND WE WILL FIGURE IT ALL OUT. BUT THEN MY SENSES CAME BACK TO ME AND I HAD TO REMIND HIM THAT HE IS IN SCHOOL TO LEARN. THIS IS ONE OF THE HAPPIEST LITTLE BOYS I HAVE EVER BEEN AROUND. HE IS FULL OF ENERGY AND SMILES YET HE CANT SEEM TO GET IT TOGETHER TO GET THROUGH A DAY AT SCHOOL WITHOUT GETTING INTO SOME KIND OF TROUBLE. I WILL BE HAPPY JUST TO GET HIM THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL AT THIS POINT. I AM CONVINCED THAT HE IS NOT TRYING TO ACT UP IN SCHOOL JUST TO CAUSE PROBLEMS BUT INSTEAD JUST TRYING TO HAVE A GOOD TIME. REALLY, WHATS WRONG WITH A LITTLE BOY TRYING TO MAKE THE BEST OF HIS DAY WHEN HE IS SOMEWHERE HE HATES. I TRY MY HARDEST TO NOT MAKE EXCUSES FOR HIM.. YET PART OF ME FEELS THAT HE IS ONLY TRYING TO BE HAPPY AND IS MISUNDERSTOOD A LOT OF TIMES. WILL THIS EVER GET BETTER? I WONDER IF THIS IS GOING TO BE A CONSTANT BATTLE TO GET HIM TO ENJOY SCHOOL AND STOP RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CRAZY PERSON..I AM A PRETTY UNCONVENTIONAL MOM.. I AM LAID BACK AND TRY TO LET BOTH BRITTANY AND JACKSON EXPERIENCE ALL THAT LIFE HAS TO OFFER US. MAYBE THIS NEXT WEEK HE WILL HAVE A GOOD WEEK WITHOUT MORE BEHAVIOR PAPERS. ONLY TIME WILL TELL HOW THIS SCHOOL THING WILL WORK OUT FOR HIM. HE IS GROUNDED AT HIS FATHERS RIGHT NOW WITHOUT TV. I UNDERSTAND THAT SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE. YET MY HEART BREAKS FOR HIM BECAUSE I KNOW THAT ALL HE WANTS TO DO IS RUN AROUND AND BE A HAPPY LITTLE BOY. I HAVE ALWAYS SAID THAT BRITTANY IS EVERYTHING I AM AND JACKSON IS EVERYTHING I WANT TO BE. SO LETS HOPE THAT AT THE END OF NEXT WEEK I AM WRITING ABOUT HOW GOOD HE DID IN SCHOOL! MOMMY LOVES YOU JACKSON. K JAGGERS