HELLO FRIENDS..
HALLOWEEN IS CREEPING UP ON US!! I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR. ITS MAGICAL TO ME. I JUST GOT BACK FROM RUNNING OUT AND I LOVE COMING THOUGH THE NEIGHBORHOOD SEEING ALL THE DECORATIONS GLOWING IN THE DARK..INCLUDING MY OWN!
ANYWAY, I HAD TO RUN OUT TO GET A FEW THINGS FOR BREAKFAST. I THOUGHT WE HAD BACON AND WE DIDNT SO OFF TO WALMART I WENT. I ALSO PICKED UP SOME HASH BROWNS TOO. CLEARLY I AM MAKING BREAKFAST FOR THE GUYS TOMORROW. I THINK I AM STARTING TO SPOIL THEM! THEY BETTER NOT GET TO USE TO IT BEING THEY ARE GOING BACK TO WORK NEXT WEEK...BUT AS LONG AS THEY ARE HOME I DONT MIND. AND I AM SURE I WILL BE COOKING BREAKFAST FOR THEM ON SUNDAYS EVEN WHEN THEY ARE WORKING.
TODAY WAS PRETTY PRODUCTIVE. I GOT ALL THE LAUNDRY CAUGHT WASHED, FRIG CLEANED OUT, BEDROOMS PICKED UP AND A BIG DINNER COOKED. THEN THE REST OF THE NIGHT I LAID AROUND AND RELAXED. I HAVE BEEN PRETTY TIRED TODAY AND BEFORE LONG I AM HEADING TO BED.
TOMORROW WE ARE HEADING OUT TO A CORN MAZE..I LOVE THEM.. I WILL BE SURE TO GET A TON OF PICTURES OF COURSE!! WE ARE GOING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE AFTERNOON SO WE CAN SEE.. I KNOW ITS FUNNER AT NIGHT BUT ITS BEEN PRETTY COOL AROUND HERE SO I WANT TO GO WHEN THE SUN IS STILL OUT! BUT I AM SUPER EXCITED!!
I SURE HATE NOT BEING WITH THE KIDS DURING THIS TIME OF YEAR. WELL ANYTIME OF THE YEAR REALLY. I HATE BEING AWAY FROM THEM. NOT HAVING THEM BESIDE ME FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME SURE PUTS MY HEART TO THE TEST. SOME DAYS ARE MUCH HARDER THAN OTHERS BUT EVERYDAY MY HEART ACHES THAT THEY ARE NOT AROUND ME.. HALLOWEEN IS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SCHOOL YEAR AND I AM NEVER WITH THEM. I GET PICTURES BUT ITS JUST NOT THE SAME THING. WHEN I TALKED TO BRITTANY TODAY SHE COULD TELL I WAS UPSET...I TRIED TO PLAY IT OFF BUT SHE KNEW. I KNOW THIS CANNOT AND WILL NOT LAST FOREVER. I PRAY EVERY NIGHT..AND EVERY NIGHT I AM ASKING GOD TO BRING MY CHILDREN TO ME. AND I KNOW HE HEARS MY PRAYERS. FOR WHAT EVER REASON, THEY ARE WHERE THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO BE AND I AM WHERE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE.. I JUST WISH I COULD UNDERSTAND WHY.. BUT I AM GOING TO STAY POSITIVE AND TRY TO STAY BUSY. IT HELPS TO KEEP ME FROM THINKING ABOUT THIS EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY..
JUST REMEMBER TO HOLD YOUR CHILDREN EXTRA TIGHT AND BE THANKFUL FOR EVERY MINUTE YOU HAVE THEM NEXT TO YOU..♥
ANYWAY, I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT SATURDAY MORNING..
TALK TO YOU GUYS TOMORROW..
K JAGGERS
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I can empathize with you more than you know. I was without my children for about a year when they were much younger. Of course they came to visit, but it's just not the same. I think I cried everyday. It was like a part of my heart and soul were missing. Keep looking forward, things have a way of ending up just like they are supposed to for whatever reason. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I admire you for even writing about it. I know I was criticized for not having my children, and I was even harder on myself. I know I don't know you personally, but I think you are a better parent than a lot of parents who are with their children 24/7. Wishing you peace with your struggles, Sarah Jane
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