SLEEPY...

IT WAS SUCH A LONG DAY TODAY. I WORKED FOREVER IN THE KITCHEN PACKING. I LET THE KIDS DO THEIR OWN THING TODAY AND I JUST PACKED ALL DAY. I TRIED MAKING SOME SPECIAL TIME WITH THE KIDS BUT IT WAS HARD BECAUSE I WAS TRYING TO STAY FOCUSED AND GET THIS HOUSE PACKED. WE ARE MOVING ON SUNDAY..THERE IS NOT MUCH TIME LEFT TO GET THIS DONE. BRITTANY WAS SUPPOSE TO HELP ME WORK ON THE KITCHEN BUT SHE DECIDED TO PLAY ON THE LAPTOP ALL DAY. I JUST LET HER. I FIGURED SHE REALLY WAS ENJOYING HERSELF..I KEPT CHECKING ON WHAT SHE WAS DOING. SHE PLAYED ON DISNEY.COM, SOME OTHER KID SITES AND ALSO EMAILED HER DAD..SO I WAS ON MY OWN. I AM GOING TO MAKE HER DO UNDER THE KITCHEN SINK TOMORROW...RATHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT...THAT'S THE ONLY CABINET IN THE KITCHEN LEFT. SHE IS ALSO DOING MY DESK TOMORROW TOO. I AM GOING TO WORK ON FINISHING THE LAUNDRY ROOM, THE PANTRY AND TRY TO GET THE THINGS IN THE BEDROOM CLOSET BROUGHT DOWN.

THIS IS ONE HUGE JOB...THE GARAGE IS ANOTHER PLACE THAT IS GOING TO REQUIRE A LOT OF OUR TIME. WE JUST HAVE TO GET OUT THERE AND GET IT DONE..UGH..THIS IS WHY I STAYED IN THIS HOUSE..I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO HAVE TO PACK ALL THIS CRAP UP. SCOTT IS AMAZED AT HOW MANY BOXES WE HAVE. HE NEVER THOUGHT WE WOULD HAVE THIS MUCH STUFF. I TOLD HIM THAT HE SHOULD NOW UNDERSTAND THIS IS WHY WE ARE MOVING. WE NEED A BIGGER HOME. WE HAVE A PRETTY GOOD SIZE HOME NOW BUT WE REALLY NEED MORE SPACE.

THINGS WERE BETTER TODAY RE SCOTT AND THE KIDS. I ALWAYS FEEL TUGGED AT TRYING TO MEET EACH OF THEIR NEEDS. THEY ALL HAVE DIFFERENT INDIVIDUAL NEEDS AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I FALL SHORT WITH THAT..SOME DAYS ARE TOO SHORT, SOME DAYS ARE TOO STRESSFUL, SOME DAYS I AM TOO TIRED, BUT.....

EVERYDAY I HOPE TO LAY MY HEAD DOWN ON MY PILLOW AND FEEL LIKE I MADE THEIR LIVES BETTER THAT DAY IN SOME WAY. THAT I PUT A SMILE ON THEIR FACE AND MADE EACH OF THEM FEEL LOVED. I THINK TODAY THEY ALL FELT LOVED. I HOPE THEY DID ANYWAY. I JUST NEED MORE ENERGY AND TIME. IT WOULD MAKE THINGS SO MUCH BETTER...ITS A HUGE CONFLICT FOR ME. THE HOUSE IS SUFFERING FROM THE PACKING AND MOVE PLUS ME TAKING WHAT EVER FREE TIME I HAVE TO SPEND WITH THE KIDS OR SCOTT. IT IS MAKING IT SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET CAUGHT UP ON THINGS. I HAVE A STACK OF LAUNDRY WAITING ON ME. I GOT TO WORK ON THAT TOMORROW TOO. JUST ANOTHER THING ON THE HUGE TO DO LIST.

I COOKED DINNER AROUND 7:30. I GRILLED OUT SOME CHICKEN AND SERVED IT WITH MAC N CHEESE, AND GREEN BEANS..SOOO SIMPLE..AND TO BE HONEST, IT DIDN'T TASTE THAT GOOD TO ME. I THINK I MIGHT HAVE JUST BEEN TOO TIRED TO ENJOY DINNER. DON'T KNOW WHATS FOR DINNER TOMORROW..MAYBE STEAKS AND HOT DOGS FOR THE KIDS. MAYBE THAT WILL TASTE BETTER...I DON'T KNOW...OR MAYBE BED WOULD JUST DO!

WELL REALLY TIRED..ITS ALMOST 1 AM AND I NEED TO GET TO BED...TOMORROW WILL BRING A NEW SET OF CHALLENGES FOR ME TO FACE.

SWEET DREAMS

K JAGGERS

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