FEET UP TONIGHT..

WELL THIS IS HOW SCOTT AND I SPENT MOST OF OUR NIGHT.. WITH OUR FEET UP, LOUNGING AROUND AND WATCHING TV. NEITHER OF US COULD FIGURE OUT ANYTHING WE WANTED TO DO SO WE JUST STAYED IN AND HUNG OUT.

WHEN HE GOT HOME WE WATCHED...

IT HAD A LOT OF GREAT ACTORS IN IT BUT IT REALLY DIDNT DO VERY MUCH FOR ME. I KINDA WISH THAT WE WOULD HAVE NOT PAID TO WATCH THIS MOVIE BUT INSTEAD WATIED UNTIL IT WAS ON ONE OF THE MOVIE CHANNELS FOR FREE. IT WAS JUST OK..NOTHING REALLY SPECIAL.

I RAN OUT TO THE STORE, CAME HOME, FINISHED COOKING DINNER, AND BACK TO BEING LAZY I WENT..I DIDNT EVEN GET 1 BOX PACKED TODAY...ITS OK.. I'M NOT STRESSING TOO MUCH. I STILL HAVE PLENTY OF TIME.. I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I AM GOING TO GET ANYTHING DONE TOMORROW BEING SCOTT IS HOME ALL DAY. ITS SUPPOSE TO BE A PRETTY DAY SO WE MIGHT GO FOR A WALK AND ENJOY SOME TIME WITH THE DOG AT THE PARK. OR MAYBE SCOTT WILL CUT THE GRASS WHILE I WORK ON LAUNDRY AND GETTING THE HOUSE CLEANED UP. NOT MUCH TO DO..EXCEPT HANG OUT AND ENJOY EACH OTHERS COMPANY. THAT IS ONE OF THE DOWNSIDES TO LIVING IN SUCH A SMALL TOWN. BUT WE CAN HAVE A GOOD TIME, JUST THE TWO OF US ENJOYING THE SIMPLE THINGS. IT MIGHT HAVE TO DO MORE WITH US GETTING OLDER THAN ANYTHING ELSE!

I HAD A LONG CONVERSATION WITH MY FATHER TONIGHT. WE TALK ABOUT ONCE A WEEK. ITS HARD BEING AWAY FROM HIM TOO. WE WAS NOT REALLY CLOSE GROWING UP BUT AS I HAVE GOTTEN OLDER WE HAVE MADE MORE OF A RELATIONSHIP THAN WE EVER HAVE. I LOVE HIM DEARLY. HE HAS REALLY BEEN NOTHING BUT CONSIDERATE AND RESPECTFUL AFTER THE PASSING OF BOTH OF HIS PARENTS AND BROTHER LAST YEAR. WE LOST 3 PEOPLE IN OUR FAMILY ALL AROUND THE SAME TIME..WE BOTH SHARE THE SAME PAIN RE THE LOSS OF MY UNCLE. WE BOTH EXPECTED MY GRANDPARENTS TO PASS AWAY. THEY BOTH WERE OLDER AND HAD LIVED FULL LIVES BUT THEY STARTED LOOSING THEIR HEATLH. BUT MY UNCLE WAS A DIFFERENT STORY. WE THOUGHT WE WOULD HAVE HIM AROUND FOR A MUCH LONGER PERIOD OF TIME. SO IT REALLY TOOK US BY SUPRISE AND WE BOTH STILL ARE DEALING WITH THAT. ITS NOT EASY. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION THAT ON SCOTTS SIDE WE HAD SOME LOSSES TOO. HIS MOTHER AND NEICE BOTH PASSED AWAY TOO CAUSING A LOT OF PAIN FOR NOT ONLY HIM BUT ME TOO. ANYWAY, IT WAS SUPER NICE TALKING WITH DAD.. WE TALKED FOR ABOUT 30 MINUTES AND MANGED TO CATCH UP ON EVERYTHING DURING THAT SHORT AMMOUNT OF TIME.

THEN TO MY SUPRISE I GOT A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MY MOTHER OF ALL PEOPLE..I COULDNT BLEIVE IT. IT SAID SOMETHING TO THE EFFECT OF SHE MISSED ME AND LOVES ME.. I THOUGHT ABOUT MY RESPONCE LONG AND HARD BEFORE I SENT A MESSAGE BACK..I FIGURED SAYING SOMETHING SMART ASS WOULDNT HELP THE SITUATION. I LET HER KNOW THAT I THINK OF HER TOO AND THAT I AM FINE. I EVEN TOLD HER WE ARE MOVING. THE MESSAGES WERE SHORT AND TO THE POINT..ITS A VERY VERY DIFFICULT SITUATION BUT MAYBE THERE IS LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. TIME WILL TELL. I FIGURE SHE WOULD CUT ME OFF AT THE KNEES IF SHE KNEW I TALKED ABOUT HER ON HERE. TOO BAD.. IM NOT TRYING TO DISRESPECT HER BUT WRITING HELPS ME THINK MORE CLEARLY. IT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER TOO. AND I DONT LIVE A LIE. I AM NOT SOMEONE WHO IS ASHAMED TO TALK ABOUT WHERE I HAVE BEEN OR WEHRE I AM PLANNING ON GOING IN LIFE. I AM OPEN AND HONEST AND TO LET ANYONE TO STAND IN THE WAY OF THAT, WOULD BE A TERRIBLE FAULT OF MINE. I AM GOING TO STAY TRUE TO MYSELF REGARDLESS OF HOW THAT MAKES OTHERS FEEL..

I CANT BELIEVE ITS ALREADY MID NIGHT. TIME PASSED FAST TONIGHT. NO WONDER I AM FEELING SO SLEEPY!

HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT SATURDAY!

K JAGGERS

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