LOVE IS THE GREATEST GIFT OF ALL

IT WAS A GOOD NIGHT TONIGHT. BABY GOT HOME ONLY A FEW MINUTES LATE AND BEFORE WE KNEW IT WE WERE SITTING TOGETHER HOLDING HANDS. ITS FUNNY HOW BABY IS ALWAYS WANTING TO HOLD HANDS EVEN AFTER SO MANY YEARS. HE IS SO AFFECTIONATE AND SO LOVING. WHEN I WAS COOKING DINNER HE WANTED TO DANCE, LEADING ME AROUND THE LIVING ROOM. I AM NOT THE MOST GRACEFUL SLOW DANCER BUT WITH HIM LEADING ME, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. WE HAD A LAZY NIGHT OF HANGING OUT WATCHING AMERICAN IDOL AND THEN THANKS TO THE BELOVED DVR WE FAST FORWARDED THOUGH ALL THE CRAP WITH DANCING WITH THE STARS TO SEE WHO WAS ELIMINATED OFF. PRETTY EASY NIGHT.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I ENDED UP WITH A MAN LIKE SCOTT. HE IS COMPLICATED IN MANY WAYS BUT HIS SOUL IS LOVING AND AFFECTIONATE. I HAVE NEVER BEEN ROMANTIC OR THE KIND OF GIRL WHO REALLY LIKES TO CUDDLE. HE HAS CONTINUED OVER TIME TO CHANGE THAT. ITS WORKING. ITS FUNNY, BECAUSE IN THE HOUSE I GREW UP IN MY GRAND MOTHER WAS NOT THE LOVELY DOVEY KIND OF WOMAN BUT MY GRANDFATHER WAS. ITS THE SAME FOR ME NOW. I AM TRYING TO CHANGE THAT A LITTLE BIT. I DON'T EVER WANT HIM THINKING I DON'T WANT HIS AFFECTION AND I HAVE TO SHOW HIM THE SAME AFFECTION THAT HE CRAVES SO MUCH. LIFE FOR ME IS BETTER THAN IT EVER HAS BEEN. THINGS HAVE REALLY CALMED DOWN FOR ME. THERE WAS YEARS OF SELF ABUSE, ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS, AND MANY FAMILY ISSUES. NOW ALL THAT IS GONE. ( WELL, WITH THE EXCEPTION OF MY MOM)...SCOTT CAME INTO MY LIFE AND WAS DETERMINED TO CHANGE IT. HE WAS DETERMINED THAT HE WOULD MARRY ME LONG BEFORE WE STARTED DATING. I WAS WITH A VERY ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND WHEN I MET SCOTT. IF I WOULD HAVE HAD A CRYSTAL BALL I WOULD HAVE THROWN THAT PERSON IN THE GUTTER AND BEEN ON MY WAY TO MY LIFE WITH SCOTT. I GUESS I HAD TO GO THROUGH ALL THAT BAD TO GET TO THE GREAT.

I THINK A LOT OF US WANT TO BUILD A BETTER MATE. I DON'T THINK YOU CAN REALLY CHANGE A PERSON BUT I DO THINK YOU CAN HELP MOLD YOUR PARTNER INTO A BETTER VERSION OF THEMSELVES. THOUGH OUT YEARS SCOTT HAS HELPED ME ACQUIRE THE QUALITIES I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO HAVE. REALLY, I THINK THAT IS WHAT RELATIONSHIPS ARE ALL ABOUT ~ STANDING BESIDE THE ONE YOU LOVE AND HELP THEM GROW INTO THE PERSON THEY WANT TO BECOME. THAT WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR ME AND I HOPE HE WOULD SAY I HAVE DONE THE SAME FOR HIM. I GUESS I AM JUST A GIRL IN LOVE WITH A VERY VERY SPECIAL MAN. LUCKY ME..

HE DIDN'T SEEM TO BE IN AS MUCH PAIN TONIGHT. HE SAID TODAY AT WORK WAS A LITTLE HARD ON HIM BUT HE DIDN'T HAVE THE PAIN IN HIS BACK. SO RIGHT NOW HE IS IN BED INSTEAD OF SLEEPING IN THE SHOWER! IN FACT, WHEN HE WAS IN THE SHOWER ME AND GIOVANNI WERE BOTH IN THE BATHROOM HANGING OUT TALKING TO HIM. ITS HARD BECAUSE HE WORKS A LOT AND I MISS HIM. SO WE MAKE TIME FOR CONVERSATIONS EVEN IF ITS WHILE HE IS IN THE SHOWER. WE WERE CRACKING UP LAUGHING IN THE BATHROOM. ITS NICE TO HAVE A MAN WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT WAS A QUALITY I CARED ABOUT UNTIL NOW. THEN WE WERE LAYING IN BED TALKING SOME MORE AND HE WAS JUST CUTTING UP AND MAKING ME LAUGH SO HARD MY STOMACH WAS HURTING! SMILES IN OUR HOME RUN RAMPED. I DON'T THINK WE ARE THE PERFECT COUPLE BUT WE SURE HAVE SOME PERFECT TIMES TOGETHER.

I DIDN'T GET AS MUCH DONE AROUND THE HOUSE TODAY. I GUESS STAYING UP TILL 4 AM LAST NIGHT SURE WAS NOT A GOOD IDEA. I USUALLY DON'T EVER SAY THIS BUT THE HOUSE IS NOT THE CLEANEST RIGHT NOW. ITS KINDA STRANGE BECAUSE OUR HOUSE IS USUALLY ALWAYS CLEANED UP. BUT THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS I HAVE BEEN SLACKING OFF. IT SUCKS BECAUSE TOMORROW I WILL BE HAVING TO MAKE UP FOR THE LAZY DAYS. I NEED TO TRY TO FOCUS ON THE KITCHEN AND LAUNDRY TOMORROW. I HATE LAUNDRY. IT JUST ALWAYS PILES UP FASTER THAN I CAN KEEP UP WITH IT.

WE GOT A PHONE CALL FROM OUR FRIEND PATRICK TONIGHT. HE IS PLANNING ON COMING UP AROUND APRIL 15TH. HE IS HAVING THAT LAPBAND SURGERY SOON AND WANTS TO COME BEFORE HE DOES IT. HE IS A GREAT FRIEND TO ME. HE WAS FOR SURE SCOTT'S FRIEND FIRST BUT I THINK HE LIKES ME BETTER! J/K.....THE 3 OF US WORKED ON THE ROAD TOGETHER. WE SPENT A LOT OF TIME TOGETHER AND I QUICKLY BECAME CLOSE TO HIM. HE SHOULD BE STAYING FOR AROUND 4-5 DAYS. CANT WAIT!

I AM GOING TO TAKE TIME TO WALK COOPER TOMORROW. ITS THE START OF ME DOING SOMETHING FOR ME AND MY HEALTH. NOT ONLY PHYSICAL HEALTH BUT IT DOES THE MIND AND SPIRIT GOOD TO GET OUT AND WALK WITHIN NATURE. I CANT SAY I AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO DOSEN'T LIKE TO SWEAT AND WHO DOES NOT LIKE TO WORK OUT. IT JUST NEVER SOUNDS GOOD TO ME. BUT I AM TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT COOPER NEEDS THE WALK MORE THAN I DO! MAYBE THAT WILL HELP!

HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT DAY. A LOT OF MY FRIENDS WERE ALL TALKING ABOUT THE BEAUTIFUL WEATHER IN THEIR NECK OF THE WOODS. IT WASN'T LIKE THAT HERE. THE SUN WAS OUT BUT IT WAS PRETTY CHILLY..TOMORROW IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE AROUND 70. IF NOT, I PROMISE YOU I WONT BE GOING FOR A 2 MILE WALK. NO WAY, NO HOW!

WELL I AM OFF TO BED. ITS TIME TO CUDDLE! TALK TO YOU GUYS WHEN THE SUN IS BACK OUT!

K JAGGERS ♥

LOVING HARD AND BEING LOVED BACK

IS THE BIGGEST ACCOMPLISHMENT

ONE CAN HAVE.