A DELICATE ILLUMINATION

Tuesday, March 23, 2010
The house is super pretty right now Its amazing how some candles in a dark room will quickly bring you to peace. Its clean, quite, and above all peaceful. I have the window beside of me cracked open and the smell of the air is even calming. Its beautiful around here tonight. Scott and I had a great dinner with Ben. Its always nice hanging out. Dinner and the cake were delicious. Scott watched the Blind Side with me afterwards before heading to bed. We had a nice time together. He worked really hard to make this birthday special for me. I appreciate everything he did and does. It still amazes me that he picked me to love. I really am a lucky girl. I am living a life that I never thought I would. I had hopes of it but never really thought it would happen. I am with a man that totally adores me. What I would have gave to have had him come into my life sooner. I know not to take it for granted too. In a second it could all be gone. Sometimes....even the best relationship ends or something tragic happens leaving life completely changed in an instant. So I don't want to take a day, minute or second for granted. Scott is my best friend ( besides my grandma!), and I feel that our relationship is a love affair. Its one of the best feelings in the world to feel adored. He shows me that I am loved. More than anything, I hope he knows that he is my everything. I hope I show him that I adore him. He will have my heart till my last breath. This birthday I am 34 years old. Time has passed quickly. I had my doubts that I would ever live to see this birthday. I really don't mind getting older. I hope I am getting a little wiser too. Its funny that when I look in the mirror things are slightly changing and my body is sure not what it was at 19. But I feel that more and more with the older I get, I am figuring out what I really do and don't like, I have become more picky, I feel that I can trust decisions and myself more. So I am not really upset about getting older. So far, life has only gotten better with growing older. That's another thing about Scott is that he is older. He knows what he likes, what he doesn't and is pretty wise. I was surprised tonight when I received a text message from my mother wishing me a happy birthday and signed it Love Mom. It shocked the hell out of me. I had already worked myself up a little yesterday thinking that she would not even say hi. I was really surprised and happy that she made an effort. Even if it was just by a text message. So maybe there is hope. Today I took it pretty easy but tomorrow I have to get somethings done around here. The bathroom closet really needs to be cleaned out. I hate doing it too..But want to try to get it done. It seems like I am always have to clean it out. I guess we mess it up pretty quick. The house is pretty cleaned so that helps me be able to tackle the bigger things. I follow this online routine that works really well for me to keep the house together. It always helps to have a little motivation. I have been only working in the home for the past 4 yrs. As much as I love it, sometimes doing the same thing everyday is a battle. On that note I filled out and submitted a application for one of the culinary stores we have around here. I think it would be a great part time job for me. I don't know if I would ever get out of there with a paycheck but I think it would be fun! And I have a lot of knowledge of a lot of the products so it could be a great fit. Fingers crossed. I was finally able to talk to Grandma today. She is finally settling in. She no longer has her car and refuses to drive anymore. She is too afraid that she will hurt someone. But she seems to be doing just fine. She did however not get all of her things but nothing she cant do without. I am sure it sucks to not have all of your stuff. But anything she needs or wants I am sure she will get it. I am just happy she is happy. That is all that matters to me. I have got a ton of birthday wishes today. Thanks so much. I have got some great family and friends. Hope everyone had a great night..remember not to take any minute for granted. =) Talk to you tomorrow ~ have quite a few new blogs in mind so I am going to keep writing! Hope you come back! K Jaggers ♥
PICTURE OF THE FLOWERS BABY GOT ME IN THE CANDLE LIGHT. HOW BEAUTIFUL.
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