CAT NAPPIN'

Tonight was a blur for me. Scott came home from work and within 30 minutes we were leaving to head to dinner. We were going out for Italian but changed our minds to Mexican food. Dinner was super good. I got chicken and beef fatiahs and they just hit the spot. The flan that I had for dessert melted in my mouth. I love Italian but dinner was really really good tonight. So I guess Mexican was the right choice. Then I come home, sit back for American Idol and fell asleep about 5 minutes before it started. I just woke up about 15 minutes ago. Baby got me a pillow and blanket out and headed off to bed. I don't know what the hell happened. I didn't even know I was tired. What upsets me is I there is only 3 nights a week (and that's if they don't have customers) that baby is home by 600. And tonight was one of those nights and I basically missed it. It sucks. I have been with Scott for 6 years now and its still hard to adjust to his schedule. In the beginning of us starting our relationship Scott was working on the road. I went traveling and working with him for 3 yrs. It was a very great opportunity for me to see many parts of our great country while being with someone I loved very much. One week we would be in New York and the next week Colorado. We had one day for travel and that usually was on Sunday. So we were in the Airports most Sundays! But what I wasn't use to or liked was learning to deal with the hours that he has to work. I have adjusted pretty well. I feel like I am use to it now, but its still not easy. And when I waste time that I could be spending with him really upsets me. I still don't know how I got so lucky to have found someone I actually want to spend time with after 6 yrs. How did that happen for me of all people? I guess maybe God did feel that I deserved to be happy. And I have learned from my 34 yrs on life, that your life can change in a second. Someone you love can be gone without any notice. I don't want to miss a minute of giving and feeling love to people who mean something to me. And tonight was wasted. Nothing upsets me like someone wasting my time and guess what I did that tonight for myself. When I woke up a little bit ago, I went and cuddled in bed with Scott and told him how much I love him. I want him to know. He shows me on a daily basis that he is loyal, honest, and loving. I could ask for anything more. Tomorrow is another scheduled early night. But being Scott is finance mgr he is usually the first in and the last one out. Lets just hope I can stay awake. Tomorrow I need to focus on around the house. This big house takes a lot to keep up. I feel like we need a bigger house but trying to keep up with everything around here is a big job. I am trying to not get upset about things always being perfect. We live in this house and I guess it is ok that things are not always as I would like them. Plus the cats and Cooper really add to the work. Speaking of Cooper, he wasn't to happy with me today. We don't have a fenced in yard and we live in like a mini Gatlinburg and he cant run loose in the summer. So today he was on his lead outside most of the day and was not happy. But too bad. I think we might start looking for another house. We keep talking about it but it is a huge job to move. I want to move, but I want a bigger house for less money, in the country yet still close to things with a great kitchen..Finding the perfect house will be hard. I sit here watching American Idol at 1am thanks to my trusty DVR. I love that thing. Soon I will hopping in a hot bath with a new magazine. My schedule is blown to hell tomorrow being its 1 am and I just woke up from a 5 1/2 hour nap..Before i know it, it will be 3 am. Hopefully I will be able to fall back to sleep! Good night all..Hopefully while I am posting this blog all of you are already counting sheep. K Jaggers " WE CAN SEE THROUGH THE EYES OF LOVE ONLY WHEN THERE'S LOVE IN OUR EYES"